Remember that time before
All our problems were serious?
I’d get “ill,” “Mum call school”
Not a hint of doubt in her actions
I was accepted into bed another hour
Not a hint of doubt like now…
Going through the list of fibs…
All to get out of class
Because We didn’t think-
Centuries of
Discoveries (could be)all on a page for
Each one of us to
Fail.
Grade me
*degrade me to your system of failure.
so I’ve just found this website and I want to see how it works and already I have received an adorable message proving how much this website wants to help me.
This written? Kitten website actually inspires writers out of tough writers block just like me. My biggest wonder is how long does the cat picture stay up. Only at sixty one two three words I am still unsure of what to actually write about but have suddenly notice I write actually a lot and that I have made a lot of typos already. I am already starting to see the benefits of this website.
I have reached one hundred words and have not yet produced or seen a picture of a cute kitten and this is rather saddening – if that is a word, though I like that I will be able to proof read this later and I think this could help me continue writing for stories, blogs, messages or whatever. I now see a little light indicating I have a Facebook message but I am compelled to keep writing in order to discover this fluffy kitten I hear about on other student blogs.One more word is all i need. Oh, it’s a picture of glasses, I think there’s a cat in the background but I can’t say I’m not disappointed. Though it does give inspiration to catty on as I genuinely want to see an adorable, cute, endearing kitty cat picture. As you can see I am writing words for the sakes of writing however it does seem to be helping. Like, if i don’t have anything else to write about I can start talking about my bottle or how I shouldn’t of started this sentence with “like,” which is so teenagery of me. OMG WHAT A CUTE CAT OMG MY DREAMS ARE TRUE AND It’S SOOOO CUTE I AM SO HAPPY.
I recommend it for essays, writers block, any form of writing or even when a little bit bored because hey, the reward is cute kittens.
Writing to an audience should be beneficial to them.
Writing privately should be beneficial to your self.
Writing is beneficial.
Right?
Reading is the same. It increases our knowledge. Understanding, practice, better.
I’m 15. I’m sitting on my bed on my phone.
Epiphany.
I don’t want to look back and have that as my memories of when I was 15.
So who do I want to be…Who do I want to remember?
Someone else??
I want to be someone. But I don’t know how and what to do. I need to think. But a part of me refuses…
I guess I want to remember physics topics for the exam tomorrow.
Micaiah’s xoxo
Yes!!!!! Best exam ever!!! Finished in half an hour!! Was able to go through it three times!!
Just fill in the blanks. No revision necessary. Maths: 5+3 = 8. 10- 8 = C2!!
Oh happy days mama!
This is why you can’t judge us by our grades. Their a complete misinterpretation of a student’s achievement and potential.
Micaiah’s xoxo
Definitely not as stressful and leg shakingly, nail bitingly, fainting in terrifying panic like everyone always says it is.
I felt confident for the test. I couldn’t wait. I sat down, got all of my two black pens, a penic, rubber and ruler, oh and a calculator…
Sat comfortably for three minutes as the exam gaurds storm around taking people’s phones and whatever else and barking the rules and sanctions.
I could even see the faint outlines of a table, the first few questions were visible but backwards and I had the thought I should learn to read backwards.
Oh I was so pumped for the exam!!
Until I opened the paper…
And I saw the first question…
And I did not know the first one mark question.
The FIRST QUESTION!! that knocked me down but I took an educated guess (also wrong guess since everyone at the end conpared results and checked the science textbook)
It wasn’t all bad, the big six marker was on a topic I seriously enjoy and understand. Auxins in plants. Tropisms.
Lamark and Darwin never joined the party which sucked since they were 1/7th of my revision?! Yup.
Are you ready for the best bit? I didn’t know there was a last page until the last minute and all I could do was sigh in dispare.
I had to laugh it off to myself and relax. Hey, it’s just one grade. I don’t even know if I want to go into science… I wanted to drop it ages ago…
So I’m okay with this. Chemistry next. I’m hoping to do better here.
Micaiah’s xoxo
You know all those Exam posts I keep doing?
Yeaaah… That’s because I’ve got my mocks this week and apparently they are important! So for the past hour I have put my phone down, pencils up staring at some past papers… And then on YouTube looking up Mega Jam dance videos.
I’ve been dancing for the past hour and that makes me happy. The thrill of the music taking over ma body is deliciously delightful and I can’t wait for life!! If you’ve done exams, please comment below telling me about them, did they really change your life as much as schools say??
Micaiah’s xoxo
I’ve just been told:
Follow your instincts and you’ll get it right.
– English Teacher
The context of this conversation was indeed Exams. Yet, else where I hear “planning is key”
To what extent do I plan? Is this just with English? Mighten this work with Maths?
In a different context however, let’s imagine life:
Many might agrue following your instincts is better than planning you’re whole life.
The ice in your fridge isn’t as fasinating as the frozen lake on a December morning.
You planned to freeze the water from your tap. The water on the lake, on ther other hand, was humanly uncontrollable.
Nevertheless, I imagine it depends on the kind of person you are. Maybe you don’t like the idea of having no control, you want to believe in free will, you making your choices.
Maybe your like me and find delight within fate. The serendipity of sunshine.
I lost my point again. Gcses suck because I don’t know what I’m doing but nothing will blow out my fire. Even if I’m lost in the exam. Even if I fail the whole thing. I’ll find my way to where I’m meant to go.
Micaiah’s xoxo
Number One: five hour art exam. All based on:
I did find it myself and it will be in front of me for observational purposes.
On top of this I will do abstract to increase creativity and hide the fact I can’t do still life.
Involving a series of materials I have been experimenting with over the year.
Moreover, I found an abstract artist I like very much: Henti matisse.
I feel inspired by his work and he has led me on to my final, developed, personal and informed piece.
^^ ALL THE BULLSHIT EXAMS WANT
Micaiah’s xoxo
I have so much work to do
It doesn’t exist
Got an art exam
It doesn’t exist
Gotta wash a bunch of stuff
It doesn’t exist
My social life is complicated
It doesn’t exist
My love life sucks
It doesn’t exist
– Words of a student trying to cope
Micaiah’s xoxo
This is a campaign my unicorn started a few weeks back.
My unicorn believes happiness is found in many places, especially in loving places.
However, not in homework.
But homework is good for the mind or whatever and can help you get good grades and that means you can get good jobs and have money to live and be happy.
Sure, even though that is correct, homework just plain sucks.
I’ve had a long day at school waking up in a cold morning, rushing out of the shower, putting my shirt on inside out, taking it off and puttin it back on and doing up the buttons and then the buttons are on and then I put on my shoes and I haven’t put on my skirt yet, when Boyd gets to my house telling me we have to go but I haven’t had breakfast so I steal a cookie from its jar.
We walk in the cold rain across our town to reach the hill of death. We trudge along, mist is probably walking with us with her headphones in.
We get through the gates and try locate our mates to here all the gossip and before you know it some drama is going on here, and Astrid is upset because of this and you have to try to comfort her, and calill likes Ike but he’s totally into Lyre and you can’t stop thinking about Tibarn’s messages from two am that morning.
The bells ring for first period, where you sit in your seat, maybe coasting and not really concentrating on the lesson. I do, I’m a try hard/teachers pet/keeno.
So I’m writing every word in the dictionary out into my maths book whilst revising for the science test I got next period.
Then we get a short break where you either go to the canteen early or not at all, try eat a piece of fruit or something because you’re only running on a biscuit since last nights dinner.
Third and fourth are just minutes wasting till lunchtime as you take in the artistic lecture or extremely physical lesson, moving and creating, usimg you’re body and mind as one even though you are still thinking at Tibarn’s messages from last night.
Suddenly its lunch and its even worse because you’re hungry, you have to be pushed into waiting in the queue, the noise is ridiculous and you’re probably shouting on the top of your lungs so the person next to you can hear two out of ten words you said.
You then try to pick something to eat, have a self conscious thought of “I’m really hungry but if I take too much food people will call me fat… Maybe I shouldn’t take any, I can wait till I get home” and then you get to fifth period and you’re starting to relax, until the teacher mentions you’re grades and you’ve not done the best you thought you could of and your mind makes it worse, telling you you’re an idiot, you shouldn’t be here, you’ll never be good enough, you just want to go home. (and eat)
You walk all the way back home, hating every step of the way thinking of new ways to make yourself feel worse.
After a year you’re home and you take loads of bites from various foods because you’re so hungry, you just want to get on with your own stuff like relaxing and watching TV or reading a book.
Then you realise you have three more hours of work to do, what makes it worse is you do it wrong. You do it online and it tells you that you’re a fail. It’s frustrating. I just want a break. You just want a break.
Make it optional, make it a recommendation, people who learn willingly do better than those who don’t. Just watch, you tell people its their choice they wont do it. Not at first. However they might see a difference in their grades, so they’ll want to do better. Maybe they might increase because now they can.rest and sleep better, they have time to practice other skills and other clubs and experiences.
My days I’m so sick of everyone thinking one size fits all. I’m so sick. I’m so tired.
Micaiah’s xoxo
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